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Monday, December 25, 2006

its been long since i last post and this post will be a very saddening post...i'm so sorry i cant help but put my sadness into words...at least that way i'll feel better? i guess....

25/11/2006...12+ midnight...i'll forever remember this date this time this moment...the moment i realized my pocket was empty!!! my phone's gone!! in juz a blink...while trying to get back to the car....everyone was spraying that snow foam which nearly choked me up with the heavy toilet-like smell....i swear we all smell like toilet after that and yes we got sprayed and ran like mad...and i think that's when someone took the chance to pick-pocket me...i have no one to blame but myself...i shud have put it inside the bag...im really unlucky and i have no idea when it lost...i really hated myself so much...i swear not to go back to that place anymore...i have phobia...

and yes i cant do anything to get it back anymore...it's gone forever and i dun even noe i will be having phone to use later on.....;(...*cries*

when we all got back to long kor's car...eggie and vege tried calling me...i mean my number to c if someone will pick up the phone...unfortunately no one answers the call...tried dunno how many millions times b4 i finally gave up and tried to called my bf instead...told him i lost my phone and he sounded shocked and asked 'u really lost ur phone ah?' for about 5 times...for godness sake i wont play such a prank to anyone ler....i can say the phone is my everything...i found it so hard to live without it...i have no more alarm clock to wake me up in the morning...i cant call anyone to wish them merry christmas...i cant sms neither...and pao's voodoo doll that she got for me is lost too...together with the phone...i'm so so so sad....

so bf called maxis centre and asked to cancel my line and everything..and he said i can get back my simcard with my balance inside when he bring me to maxis centre on wednesday....no police report needed...according to him but i'm not too sure myself...until i really get back the simcard...my mood juz varnished the moment i found myself living without a phone...and thinking bout the scoldings i will get from parents when they know this... i started saying lots of things and made long kor, vege and eggie asked me to stop thinking bout it anymore...but i cant help it...i'm really sorry if i spoil the mood...even right now i'm still in grief...

then i started talking non-stop in murni when the rest were busy eating and drinking...i have no appetite at all...even if i'm given shark-fin or abalone...nothing can heal my sadness...i dunno why long kor, eggie and vege laughed non-stop when i started to talk..juz thought i'll make some noise since they dun allow me to mention anything bout the phone incident...they even asked me to stop talking cos their stomach was aching and vege and long kor cant hold their bladder any longer...i did not say anything funny but dunno why they keep laughing...and i have nothing to do so i help to clean up the table a bit lo...while waiting for them to finish the food...

i told my bro bout this incident online..he laughed so hard and said it's a family tradition to lost the 1st phone..cos his 1st phone was lost too...and when i told my parents i lost it..my dad did not say much after i told him i cancelled the line and will go get back my simcard later..but mum was like so evil..no sympathy for me at all...she kept saying 'very good! well done!' and 'serve me right'...haih...i've expected it tho...but really why lar so mean...kept blaming me for it...like i want it to happen?? dun understand my feeling at all.....how sad...and i dun think she'll let me go to any countdown event like this anymore...i wish i could die in front of her...

my life is so miserable after getting home...wanted to sms my fren to ask how was her celebration but i cant...wanted to call bf but i cant also...all the phone numbers are gone....life is so difficult being a cow....*sigh*...i dun feel like owning anymore phone now...juz hope that phone doesnt exist in the world...then i wont be having so much problem right now...and school's gonna reopen soon...i hate it!!! i've wasted my whole hols doing nothing....feeling so tensed ..so stressed...while counting down to 2007....a hard year coming ahead....juz hope someone could kill me now...or i'll juz commit suicide....

*have some pics uploaded to the comp edi but photobucket isnt working..so i guess i'll upload here in my next entry ya...and eggie remember to gimme all the photos..and have fun in ur trip...shop more ya!! dun forget us...=)

.::chanelz::. hugged you at 9:44 PM;Y

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