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Monday, February 9, 2009

9th of February...
A day to remember
For this is the first time
First time ever in the past 4 months
That I...
I shed a tear...

You think I do not know what's going on
You think I'm always that ignorant
You think I'm not up to your expectation

Yes, I know
I knew it all
I have never been perfect
As hard as I tried
I failed.

I'm never good with words
I'm never good with emotions
In fact, I'm never good in anything at all.

I know...
I know what you did all these while
I know why you did it
I know how hard it is for you to bear it all by yourself

I wish...
I wish to share it with you
But it never happens
For I screwed it all up

Tears can't stop streaming down
Why is there a sharp pain as if someone stabbed me through my heart
Feelings of hurt
Feelings of lost
They came side by side

I wished to talk longer
But words stopped as soon as I moved my mouth
The pain is still there
You tried to change the subject
But you don't know me well
I never like being left alone.

And that happened.
I'm left alone here, all by myself
After being thrown with all the heart-piercing words
I came to my sense that......
The people I care most about can and will eventually turn around and break my heart into pieces, and then leave me to lick my wounds alone.

Never have I been this hurt.
Hearing those words from you sent me straight to the edge of the cliff
You said you are tired
You said you want to give up

Why, why can't you say something soothing
Is that so hard for sweet talking?
Is that too much to ask for?
Why am I always being left alone with all the cruel words flooding my mind

Today it's a Chinese Valentine's Day
Never have I ask for anything
You thought leaving me alone is the best solution
NO, you are so wrong
But I can't do anything
I can only cry, silently
For I know I do not want to make things worse

Fragile, that's the one word that describe the organ that pumps blood around the body.
Broken, that's the one word that describe the exact situation.
Lone and insomnia, that's the two best friends that will stay through me tonight.

.::chanelz::. hugged you at 9:56 PM;Y

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