we love ourselves!

Saturday, December 6, 2008

This is random. @.@.

I talked to a friend of mine today which got me thinking. It's the 7th of December already as of today. How time flies.

As much as I'm looking forward to my visit in Melbourne, as much as I'm looking forward to go back home, as much as I'm looking forward to meet all my relatives and friends back home;
I can't help but also think that there goes my 1st year of Uni life.

I regretted not enjoying myself to the max in my 1st year of Uni life, but yet on the other hand I regretted not acing all the subjects. It's true how people told me it's the personality that matters the most when it comes to job interview in the working world. Yes, I know, but isn't securing more HDs an added bonus? But oh well, what's done cannot be undone. There's no use crying over split milk, aye?

Such dilemma. I'm dreading the new semester. I know it's still early to think about that now, but you know what, when one is too bored (*hint: me), one tends to let the mind wanders a tad too far, which sometimes can be good, can be bad. It's up to you to judge. I would say it's a little in between the two. I have been wasting my one whole month of holidays rotting at home. Oh well, I can't say waste, because I've got plenty of time. What else can I do besides writing crap like these which I know no one bothers to read anyway? As much as I want to sharpen my knowledge on drugs and all, I do not have the resources and most importantly laziness kicks in. That says it all.

Study related stuffs aside, I really think I should enjoy my summer holidays before I push myself too hard next year. I should be happy because in one week's time, I will be meeting my family and then we're gonna have the best vacation ever in Melbourne. I should be, but I'm not. Sigh. There're just too many things going on my mind now. Although I might look alright on the surface, but deep down inside I'm actually being really emo. I like to hide my feelings. Someone once threw me a question which goes like this 'Why are you always so happy? How can you be so cheerful all the time?' Am I? It's so superficial. Babies are the most honest little things. I wished, I wished I can express my emotions like how a baby does.

I'm tired, tired of everything. The things that are happening around me, around the world. What's with all the terrorist attacks going on? What's with all the never-ending crimes happening in every part of the world?
I wonder is there really a thing like PEACE? Is there really such thing like LOVE? What does happiness mean? It's just too hard to please everyone, aye?
I can't help but lose hope. I just want to get to a place with mountains and the ocean where I can stand on top of the world and shout my lungs out. I will be alright, superficially, if you know me well you know what I mean.
This is a really cool picture I found on google which expresses......being emo? Take a good look.

.::chanelz::. hugged you at 11:18 PM;Y

0 comments

profile <

F O O D I E S ♥

# WELCOME!
# this is our blog, our story, our life ...
# cheers to friendship!

*theFAMILY*;
%LONG KOR;
YEE GIN. 'dai lou'. head of foodfamily. OC in personal hygiene. location:IOWA
%VEGE;
SOOK KOON. 'choi sou'. shopaholic. location:ADELAIDE
%PAO;
ADELINE. 'adepao'. long kor's wifey. cheerleader.
%COWIE;
CHIA YEE. 'ngau bei'. fashionista. location: BRISBANE
%FISHY;
JING XIN. 'siu yu'. movies+music addict. currently MIA.
%EGGIE;
LEE TING. youngest. 'tan mui'. responsible for blog layout's cacatness. ???

TALES! <

Free shoutbox @ ShoutMix

SWEETS <

as we go on...

we remember...

all the times we...

had together...

and as our lives change...

come whatever...

we will still be...

Y FRIENDS FOREVER (: Y

LINKS <

eggie-ting

pao-adeline

ClothesBucket

Eclectism Right From Your Closet

may yi

mei jean

sin yee

sue hsia

wei zhi

Yee Che (chee jie)

Kang Ying (pat)

Kien Seng (KS)

Ju Ann (ann jie)

TIMES <

Iowa

M'sia

Adelaide

Queensland

ARCHIVES <

arigatou <

designed by the VERY sweet person >>-Chronicles. Thanks to just-yinny for the scrollbar code from Yinny/ 30. Cutting Edge! ((: I've changed the scrollbar already but I should still thank her :D Those beautiful brushes from >>moargh And of course using >>adobephotoshop! :D